1.19.2012

Project 52:1 {Part 1}





"....And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing. But if any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all generously and without reproach, and it will be given to him.  But he must ask in faith without any doubting, for the one who doubts is like the surf of the sea, driven and tossed by the wind. For that man ought not to expect that he will receive anything from the Lord, being a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways."
James 1:4-8

{I just wanted to finish the verses....they were too good to leave out the rest!}

PROJECT 52:

"Thankful"

I got the motivation from Styleberry Blog and will be linked up to her weekly 
project for accountability!  

52 weeks, 52 pictures of things I am thankful for {my theme of choice}. Here, every Friday.  For a couple of weeks, since I'm starting late, there may be 2 a week on different days because I'd like to get on page with the year's calendar weeks. 

A coffee table photo book of all 52 posts will wrap it up. :)

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I know our trials have been pretty insignificant in light of all the seriously hard trials many other people face. So far, we have really been blessed with great health and no major accidents {although Adolyn seems to give me a good scare almost every day of my life}.  Nevertheless, these are my trials. 

This picture only portrays a very minor trial: trying to cook dinner with a curious baby wanting attention.  Don't worry, there are no chemicals under that counter....only stuff he can play with. :)  That picture also more accurately portrays what I look like in the midst of our trials or at least what I'm feeling in my head.  But, I'd rather have a cute picture of him with that look on his face than me.  So, here you go.

Although this season IS full of fun, laughter, love, entertainment and excitement, it is still challenging.  I have never been so challenged in my life, and this is due to my wonderful personality trait of impatience.  God is definitely teaching me patience to say the least.  He's teaching me that patience is fruit of the Spirit.  Therefore, He's teaching me to walk in the Spirit more...to ABIDE in Him, to depend on Him, to YIELD to Him. Him, Him, Him.  MORE of Him, Less of Me.

So......

He has breathed new hope in me.

I don't even know how to pinpoint what has happened.  It's like it just hit me.  HE just hit me. 

I think I reached the end where I knew the truth to all my ugly sin {which these trials of parenting were bringing out} was that I really wasn't walking in the Spirit like we christians tend to think we do.  If I WAS walking in Him, and I mean REALLY walking in Him, I'd surely be showing more fruit while treading the trenches of temptation and sin each day and not missing out on the awaiting joys. 

I realized I didn't really believe the Truths in the Word or take them for true face value...which has always been a fault of mine.  I'm like the doubting Thomas.  I think something else was feeding the lies in my head instead.  Fear?  Believing what I had seen in my own life over what HE had said in His infallible Word?  Believing what I see or feel "here and now" instead of His eternal Truth? The lies of the enemy?

I would always set myself up for failure....praying and asking for help but knowing in the back of my mind that I would just soon fail again....because I always go back.  always. {there's that man tossed by the waves of the sea}

Well, little foolish one, if you expect failure, failure is what you will get!  How foolish can I be?  Why ask if you are only going to doubt?

The words "Daughter, your faith has healed you" keep playing through my mind.

Faith.  Believe.  I keep hearing "Believe in ME, MY power, My Words."
{Ephesians 1:18-21}

 "Believe that I, yes I alone, can overcome your temptation to anger, your self-centeredness, your need for control, your self-protection." 

"BELIEVE and rise up!  Come out from the death of your flesh that you keep going back to.  I will give you LIFE!  FREEDOM! VICTORY!"

{Ok, so this is all basically a paraphrase of 50 different verses, but it IS Truth....in my own words.}

Ok, so I got it now.  I believe.  So, now what?  How do I trust?  How do I keep believing?  How do I keep depending on you to save me from my sin every day without falling back to the old lies?  I know the enemy is going to be hitting hard soon.  My flesh is always weak.

Believe.  Put on the Armor of God.  Walk in the Spirit.  Discipline Yourself for godliness.  Renew your mind.  {All these answers just overwhelm my thought process.}

But HOW?

Well, figuring out how has changed my life in a matter of weeks.  It is no secret. It is nothing new.  It's just actually seeing the REAL DEPTH of what His Word means and putting it into practice.  Seriously.  Go figure.  Who knew it would really work if we just DID IT and did it like He means it??


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